Voredor

I can't fight the battle from my bed, Can't get past the static in my head. Just feel like locking myself in, Too many noises the walls are too thin. I have these words carved into me, I wanna speak, can't set them free. Being buried under my every sin, Feels like these walls are caving in. I don't know if I want less or more I wanna run but I've locked the door I just want to evolve from within, But I'm trapped underneath my skin. Wanna change the world, I want to grow, But all this doubt in my head won't let me go. I got this sorrow that isn't healing fast, I got this heartache, that I can't move past. Stuck here in yesterdays loop, Why won't my thoughts regroup? Somethings wrong with the TV in my attic, And all the channels are filled with static.

In this isolation the pandemic Caused, Somehow still our paths crossed. Well on the paper, it all checked out, Should be a match without a doubt. And yet we're short of a certain trick, You see, ideally we both should click. No, I do not feel above her, I just don't really love her. So much in common it's ridiculous, It should be fine, but it's a mess. I know how she would love and care, But forcing myself to love, isn't fair. And I know she truly wants a good guy, Which is why, I cannot start this lie. I know that she will recover, I'm sorry, I still don't love her. She asks to hang out all the weeks, I know it's my company, she seeks. Every time she's staying longer, Her very presence just feels wronger. And though any company is seldom, She has overstayed her welcome. I am not it, go find another, I may be lonely, but I can't love her.

You made me up, better believe it. You can't stop, I'm too intriguing. You need to explore me, Get to the core of me. Cause I'm really you, you know that it's true. You made me up, I am your masquerade. You bring me out, Just to save your face. I am what you wish to be, I'm what you won't let anyone see. You show others all the light, They never see the darkness inside

(Religious leaders who abuse your trust, Telling what you can and what you must. People claiming they're holier than thou, Just where is your god now?) - optional You're living on the straight and narrow but still you're hit by every arrow You might be fulfilling your every vow When life goes wrong, where is your god now? You're hurting from what you've been put trough, This isn't fair, why did it happen to you? I wonder what deity would let that allow? So please tell me where is your god now? Murderers and rapists getting away with their crime While innocent victims will pay every time Bad things happen to good people, that's fair how? Explain to me, where is your god now? It feels like you're slowly going insane Hurting inside with all of your pain Tearing through your heart like a plough Where at all, is your god now?

Everything is temporary This is a knowledge that I carry your beliefs in the tooth fairy All the monsters you find scary One who's out of the ordinary One true love, one to marry Maybe it's was arbitrary It was still just temporary Some may join the military Going home as honorary Or end up in the mortuary All goes to the cemetery Everything is temporary Born today, tomorrow bury Eat, drink and be merry Cause even you are temporary

How'd it come to this, you picking up your things. leaving me an abyss, and scars that need stings. How'd we drift so far apart, when we were once so close. Frozen over burning heart, is that the life we chose? Did we have too much pride, to chose each other more. To fight throughout night, and remember what we swore. When did we start to stray, did we ever not? Was forever and a day, A foolish thought we got?